This is hardly a night I could have my own time. So I stop to take a break and a flash back to the past five years I have walked all the way through.

 

In order to fulfill my dream, I squeeze myself hard in a fast-pace environment—both time and energy consuming. I tried hard to adapt various situations and various peolple, from Shenzhen to Wenzhou, from headquarters to field sales. I always think that I have experienced too much, happiniess as well as sufferings, sometimes even more than I could probably handle mentally and phisically. For consecutive four years, I survived numerous hardships:disappointment, lost, unconfidence, loneliness, rejection, distrust, conflict feedbacks, challenge of limits,endless housework trifles, financial problems...How many times I felt too tired to go on but later comprimised by telling myself "It's gonna to be over and things will turn better". I hope all the past times would come to an end and my dream would come true soon. I have enough and I feel sick.

 

However, today I still stand at the crossroads, waiting in line to be favoured by the Godess of Luck. I am scared indeed, at this very moment. How I wish I had been more diversed, more talent and had more time. How I wish I could learn more, achieve more, save more and improve more. And how I wish I could be brave enough to face the uncertainty, calm enough to accept the unideal, optimistic enough to take the worst and cool enough to let it be. I am scared, for all I had put into for the past 5 years.

 

Forest Gump had said "Life is like a box of cholocate, you never ganna to know what's in it". We probably cannot manage the moment at hand, but maybe we can change the trend in the long run, so keep on walking ...